TO: ALL SUICIDAL PEOPLE

To: All Suicidal People

　

I’m sorry. I’m sorry that we don’t understand. But, I’m sorry again, because I don’t think a large majority of people KNOW that they don’t understand. Why don’t they understand? Because they aren’t you. We put on assemblies and programs on suicide prevention. Do they work? No. I think it makes it worse. I, out of a few people, understand that you are numb. Speakers tell you that suicide affects so many people and that it makes people feel really sad and regretful, and they tell you that the people around you love you. You hear it, but you can't feel it, Cuz you’re NUMB. They play happy music and say words that are inspiring and that to me is so backwards. You look around at people being inspiried and being enlightened and then you look at yourself and you hate yourself because you can't feel it, BECAUSE YOU'RE NUMB. That’s like you being trapped in a dark room and having someone dangle a flashlight way above you’re head expecting that to give you the power to jump that high and catch it. People need to realize that they need to get as far down to your level as possible and help you step by step. I get why you don’t want to go to counselors. Because they are happy people and they don’t get it. You wanna know the truth.? No one can bring you out of depression. You have the biggest role. The people who aren’t suicidal can’t prevent suicide. It’s impossible. We can tell you there is a light at the end of the tunnel, but we can’t give it to you. We can tell you that you have a purpose, but we can’t tell you what it is. It’s all talk. It’s ridiculous, and I’m sorry.

　

You're probably wondering why the heck you're reading this. And you're reading this because you're dying to read something that finally helps you, or ACTUALLY makes sense. You're dying to find someone that understands and feels your pain. Well do you know what? That's gonna be really hard. Because, do you wanna talk about your problems openly? Does that sound appealing to you? No. It doesn't. So would'n't it be hard to find someone like you pouring there soul out to strangers on the internet? Yes. It would. And I don't think you'll find it. I'm here to give you the best words I can. I probably won't help you, but like millions of other people, i want to. I want to so bad.

But here are my words to you.

You are strong. You don't feel strong, because depression makes you weak. Depression doesn't just make you feel weak, it makes you so weak that you think you'll never be able to feel strong again. But you are. You are so strong I can't even put in into words. Do you know why I think you're so strong? It's because you're still here. And I'm so proud of you. You get up in the morning, not even wanting to open your eyes, but go to school and you deal with all of the brats and douchebags in the hallway on top of the way your feeling and honestly that is such a superpower. But you need to realize something, you are not alone. You might only see people smiling, which makes you feel even worse, but just because someone is smiling that does not mean that they are happy. You have to get that through your head. But you don't know who is depressed, because no one talks about it. And that's such a problem. If you are suicidal and you are reading this..... again....YOU ARE STRONG, BECAUSE YOU'RE STILL HERE. I KNOW you don't feel strong, because that's normal. But you are. And you can't do this by yourself. Getting out of this or at least getting better is your CHOICE. TALK ABOUT IT. I want you to start from the beginning of time until the present. Pouring everything out is the BEST therapy. I know you won't admit it, but you want to get everything out, I know you do.

Life can SUCK, I know.

Many things about life piss me off but know that everything is going to be okay. I know you don't feel like you have a purpose, and it's SO easy to feel like you don't. But I'm gonna be honest, you can go through life and die old and never know what your purpose was. You might grow up and be a doctor, a teacher, or even a manager for a store, and you might think "That's my purpose", but there's a chance that that won't even be it. Purposes can be big and small. Your purpose might have been to say Hi to that lonely girl in the hallway, you might have saved her life. Your purpose might have been becoming good friends with someone who you didn't know was longing for a friend, and you saved her.

So, bascially, your purpose can range from saying Hi to someone to becoming Presidant of the United States of America. You don't know. And you probably never will. But know that YOU HAVE ONE. You are on this earth for a reason, and it's a beautiful reason. And life is beautiful. Life seems sucky right now, I know, but you have to change your perspective, right now. I wrote a song a while ago and a line in it is "cuz today, I'm on top of the world cuz I chose to be". Life is about perspective, it's about how you look at things. Something bad can happen to you and you can let yourself get discouraged about it, or you can be like "UH-UH, NOPE. I am gonna smile and move on, I'm not gonna let this ruin my day."

It's your choice.

TO ALL SUICIDAL PEOPLE.

PUSH SUICIDE OUT OF YOUR HEAD.

RIGHT NOW.

You have a purpose. And you're gonna grow up, get a job, fall in love, make a family, become a parent, become a grandparent, and then die old and gray, like you're supposed to. Don't make a permanent solution to a temporary problem. When people say "The whole world is here for you," they mean it. But the world is only here for you if you trust the world, and if you trust the people around you. You think no one in school cares about you but maybe that's because you're not letting people know what you're going through and you aren't letting them care. YOU need to open up the curtains and let the light in, and open the door and let people in.

 It's time.

  You can do it.